First of all, I have noticed that I really can't make any decisions by myself. I always ask someone's opinion or let them decide. This is really annoying. I feel like I always choose wrong, or it's embarrassing to be the one choosing something. I find it really hard to choose things. So yeah, my self esteem is that bad.

But.. I have watched all five x-men movies in these couple days. A week ago I really didn't even like x-men movies or I just didn't think them as good movies. I feel like a nerd, or something. I don't really even know anyone who likes x-men. Are you hiding it, or are they so bad movies? ;_;

Here, have a sexy Wolverine drawing. NOT BY ME! Found it here.

I'm feeling really stupid in here, because I'm chatting and complaining here for myself, 'cos no one is reading my blog.

It's easier to write in english.

Every day I say something like "Ok I'm going to kill myself", "I'll kill myself" "Let me die", "I'll kill myself right now" etc. (Said it like five minutes ago also) for my mom. She always just laughs ironically and is like "Yeah, right." But when I say that I'm not interested in that art school I'm going to, she says I have depression because I'm not interested in that and I need a psychiatrist ONLY because of that. 
I'm just crazy, I'm really sick. I know I really should go and see a shrink but really not interested in that even. Fuck this haha.

I think this blog will be in english after all.

And this is who I am ♥

Sorry, but these pics were so beautifully in pretty order, but when I posted this they are so messy and shitty ;--;My eyes got raped, I hope this wont traumatize you for a lifetime. Here you go, some pics where you can see who I really am. Pictures (c) andthatswhoiam tumblr blog.